A New Beginning...

I am not spiritual in nature just because my name is SOUL. I am in search of those few words which provoke you to believe that the ray of light exists in everyone’s life. I am also in search of my Twin Soul who is connected with me through my veins that vibrate every breath to wake him up from his deep sleep, calls out his name not through the language or words but through the noise of the blood flow in my body just like the sound of the waves in the sea.

The heart beats call him and say “Look, look, she is someone known to you!” “You know her man!” Go recognize her and look into her eyes, go down and flow in her body, in that thick red blanket, you will pass through every vein that would vibrate and call out your name, you will see every cell that has your picture impressed on it. Go, reach her eyes, she would blink at you and give you shade through those beautiful lashes, her fluid (tear) would sprinkle on your face to feel the water cold. Purify yourself in her blood stream, she would take the entire burden for you, for that much she loves you. Move up, above her eyes and you will meet her soul. Her soul resides in her mind and will dance when she sees you there.

The brain beats, the heart beats, the veins vibrate, her soul awaiting, her eyes gazing, the cells breathing and the body of energy only calls out one name “………..” You will meet yourself in her cells; they know you more than you know yourself. Show up where ever you are, meet her, accept her, love her, tell her, talk to her, breathe her, admire her, listen to her, share with her, reason her, believe in her.

Every thought that she thinks about you is heavier than your own existence on this Planet Earth for that much strong is her energy. Go call out her name! She wants to listen from you, listen to those 27 years, every story that you breathed, dissolve in her blood stream, melt in her eyes. Her veins that vibrate would give you air to breathe in her body, go stay in her body because she welcomes you every single moment. That’s the function of her body.

She is your answer, she is your call and she is your “Soul Mate.”

She will make you breathe in her body, store your sperm, give room to your fetus in her womb and convert her blood into milk to feed your child. What a feeling it is to be your Woman! A Woman in Love! A woman who would not only give you place in her heart but have her entire family in her "Sole Body."

Go, knock her heart and she will open her eyes, spread her fingers for you to hold her palms and open her arms for you to hug her. Go, take her where you first kissed her and tell her the stories of those 27 years and she would be your “Friend for Life.” Stand next to her and send her those electrifying currents, connect with her by kissing and she would realize who you are. All she would say, “I know you, I see through you.” You’re my twin soul and I recognized you through the noise of your blood flow like the waves in the sea. “You’re the one!”

There’s a flood on the Planet Earth. It’s a blanket of thick red water; the sand absorbs it all and turns red in colour, the scattered cells shows the picture of your face on it.

Go, gather all of them and meet her soon or else the cells won’t be able to meet its own body. Let the broken women get one with you. Live your life in her body because that’s the place for you. You are her Twin Soul!

Kshiti Shah

It was a strange birthday !!

Fetus to Me: Why are you so excited about your birthday? You are counting weeks, days and now few hours to go. Waiting for your friends to wish you your birthday! How could you be so mean? 

Me to Fetus: By the way, who are you? Why are you upset with me? I don't even know you. I don't understand you (surprised); I can see those yet developing but angry eyes. You are so tiny and weird (giggled). You still look soft but cute. I haven't seen you ever in my world (wondering). You don't even look like one of us. Your body is similar to us though. Looks like you are a bud yet to blossom into a flower. (imagining). Later, (looking around, confused) is this some joke or am I dreaming? (Inquiring to herself)

Fetus to Me: What are you talking about girl? (Irritated). I am angry at you because you’re excited about your birthday and you started describing my body. As if I am so unaware about my looks? How dumb of you?

Me to Fetus: Listen, (irritated) you are crossing your limits (pointing out her index finger towards fetus). First and foremost I don't know you, on top of that calling me a dumb is little too much (angry). It's my birthday and of course it’s my free will to be excited about it (very clear in her tone). What is your problem is yet not clear to me? (With an attitude) You look some disfigured thing to me. (Disgusted)

Fetus to Me: Of course, from cute to disfigure is quiet a quick journey miss! (Sarcastically). Listen, I am a part of you if you want to believe in me.

Me to Fetus: What?? What rubbish? (Bugged)

Fetus to Me: Yes, it is rubbish for you. Don't open your mouth anymore (threatening). If I disappear, you will not be able to stop thinking about me and remember, your so called excitement will go away. Stay calm and listen to what I am saying.

Me to Fetus: (Scared, confused and shocked) softly, who are you?

Fetus to Me: I will explain everything. Stay calm! "I am YOU". Relax please.

Me to Fetus: Is this some kind of a joke? (She yells). Get lost from here. You’ve lost your mind, little one (with ridicule)

Fetus to Me: Believe me if I get lost then you won’t be able to stop thinking about me.

Me to Fetus: Ok, tell me what do you want? (Pretending to be relaxed)

Fetus: Great! That makes me feel better. So you already believe that I am you. That’s why you’re asking me another question. What do I want? (Pause) Well, I know you’re pretending.

Me: (With a soft voice) how do you know I am pretending? (Breathing heavily out of fear)

Fetus: Because I am a part of you, of course I will know (Confidently). I am the fetus. You were me (fetus) in the mother’s womb. You don't accept me because you disowned me.

Me: Surprised! (Eyes widened)

Fetus: It took you few seconds to call me from cute to disfigure. I am your disowned part and so I look disfigured to you, believe me I am called the purest form, the most amazing, beautiful being in this Universe. If you notice then everyone is more than happy when I enter their world. They have all kinds of celebrations in the world. A wife becomes a mother as soon as I come into their lives; I am born in her womb. She is called a mother because of me.

Me: At ease a little bit, but still keen to listen. (Makes sense)

Fetus: I know you are feeling better. You will also realize that I am your part. It’s your 26th birthday and I am oozing out to tell you all these things. It’s been so many years but I could not express, I didn't have the language like you dear. 13th September is your birthday? Is it? Who told you? Parents? I was born 9 months back when not even mom came to know that she has me in her womb. On the 26th day of my birth, my heart started beating, lungs formed to breathe. I am living since then, even before 13th Sept. Where are those 9 months gone when I/you were a fetus? Omitted? Why? No one knows their birth dates because we don’t know when we are born? Not even the mother herself knows until the first month. So wouldn’t you consider those 9 months?

Fetus to All: (confidently challenging) I am you and no matter if you disown me or the world continues this fashion of birth dates, we all know that we were once a fetus and those 9 months were also are our part of life and we can never deny that. At least not this lifetime!

Me: Lights switched on! I am looking here and there don’t know what’s happening! (Suddenly loud noise in my room) Happy birthday song!! All my friends are here. Of course, it’s a surprise but I don’t know whether a pleasant one or not. Zero reaction on my face. Eventually the voices turn soft. One of my friends (with concern) asked me, hey what happened? Nothing, I replied quickly (pretending to be fine). Thank God it was a DREAM!! I just knew one thing in my heart, I will never forget that fetus was me, the small me and will remain a part of me forever. Still don’t know how to react? The dream seemed as real as me. Unforgettable one!!

Kshiti Shah :)

"Men Uses and Women Loses"

If our long term relationships are on the verge of breaking up, we cry in front of our freinds or on the TV show and say "He would come home, USE me and go away.."
Give me a break dude! Which world are we living in? 70s, 80s or 21st century?
You degrade yourself to the extent of calling yourself a Disposable Product? Wasn't the man involved? Oh! he wasn't Used? Is it?
"Men Uses and Women Loses." Just think once? It's the society who has given this power to men. Women would be used if she gets involved! I am not saying that our society is bad / wrong. The objective of the society behind this is to keep discipline and not to act like dogs. So one of the sexes have to follow the rules and it is ofcourse women.
There won't be an extra privilege for men, if women Decides not to give them this privilege where one calls herself as a used product and the other, if; doesn't loses his virginity then "He is not a Man."
If we are really in the 21st century and so called modern people then think about it?
The least we can do is to stop degrading ourselves.

PS: I was scrolling the channels and came across this trailer on a national television program called emotional ataychar where woman was crying and saying, "he would come home, use me and go away." What is the need of such shows is yet another issue!!

Kshiti Shah

I Realised..

My friend Micheal,
Saw different kinds of people.
One fat, one thin,
Some studious, some keen.
Few hard to know,
Some are friends, others are foe.
All are different, he analysed,
We are human, we realised.
Everything is messed, but yet we are blessed.

(7th Grade)

"Save Innocence"

All reality shows are so harsh or deeply sad... Why does reality have to be so harsh? Children's reality shows like singing, dancing on the songs with typical expressions which make them loose their "Total Innocence"... I am not against their talents but make sure they enjoy their childhood cz these shows are bringing in them strong competition where on one hand we teach them to compete with oneself, (we are contradicting our own values) where with competition comes jealousy..... How and Why would a 8 year old child in any case, understand that due to less votes, in spite of dancing great, he/she will loose in the show? What would happen to his/her psyche? We as adults want to flaunt about our children that's why we are putting them in these shows. Every child has potential in them and they will show up at the right time..... Due to these shows, children who may not like singing, dancing are also getting pulled towards it for fame and money which shud not be in their dictionary at this age. If they start doing what adults do then by the time they grow they will find themselves in a state of vaccum and bored in life. Life will seem stangnant. Let each child taste the life of childhood fun.. Kshiti Shah